Body Image

There is no faster way to feel bad about your body than trying on bathing suits.  Seriously. 

For those of you who have been following along know that I've been attending Weight Watchers since September.  You probably will remember me celebrating reaching my goal in January.  People, I lost 30 pounds.  That was no easy feat and certainly something to be proud of. 

Losing 30 pounds means you need to replace your wardrobe.  Since this isn't something I can afford to do in one big shopping spree I started with the essentials.....jeans!  Every once in a while I'll look for something new so that I can slowly build my wardrobe with clothes that fit me and show off my new curves. 

Today was one of those days.  I had an eye doctor appointment and was close to a department store I enjoy shopping in so I decided to pop in.  I'm in need of a dress for Easter and my son's communion in April and I wanted to begin looking for bathing suits.  I figure I'll need a lot of time in that department! 

I started out with dresses.  I was thrilled to find I needed a smaller size than I thought.  Unfortunately I just wasn't loving anything so none of those came home with me.  Then I tackled the bathing suits.  I brought in armloads of suits to try...all different styles and sizes.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not thinking I lost 30 pounds and can now sport a bikini.  I just wish that those 30 pounds showed in a bathing suit the same way they show in a pair of jeans and a t-shirt!  Suit after suit showed all the flab and rolls that didn't get toned in the loss, every sag, every stretch mark and every bit of cellulite.  I decided that I really don't need to get a bathing suit after all.  I'm going to be sporting my jeans and a t-shirt at the beach this summer, because damn it....I look good in those!